30th Oct 2008Woke up around 2pm.. think iam fully taking advantage of sleeping till afternoon b4 I start working next week.. went online in the afternoon.. kinda excited meeting Fren A later at cityhall at night.. it's been long since I last saw her..
Iam so glad to see her.. we went marketplace to get drinks b4 heading to espanlade to chat.. 2 heart broken gals comforting each other.. sidetrack.. there is a pair of les sitting right in front us, hugging and kissing.. gross.. and the 2 of them looks girly..
We both shared our hurts.. She shared with me how she has healed him from his last relationship. The guy was being dumped previously and still could not get over the gal even when he is with my fren. He has hurt himself, try to suicide.. my fren is there for him.. When he start going out with my fren, he still keep that gal photo in his wallet for a year, when my fren found out, she still forgive him graciously. Slowly, my fren healed him and help him back on track.. When he busy at work, my fren even help him out doing secretary stuff..
All through 8 yrs, my fren have done so much too.. My fren said their breaking might be bcos the guy wants to concentrate on his career, and he is not willing to give her the attention and need in a r/s.. b4 he met with the PRC he is very cold to my fren too.. no calls no sms.. Iam wondering just how hard does it take to reply a sms or a short call?
Yet he can meet the PRC and choose to be with her.. Why? My fren say if she is the one who went to look for the bf at his office at Tuas, things wouldnt be like that.. cos maybe the PRC was there to probably to empathise and comfort him for working hard at office.. I think it didnt justify the situation at all.. I feel so unfair for her.. WTH.. she is there all along for the bf.. when he say he is busy cant meet her.. she take it and wait for him to be free then.. she is there all along waiting for him..
Once I thought if I didnt went for that holiday, things wont happen.. Iam wrong.. If he wants to do that, nobody can stop him.. If not of this woman, another woman can make him to do that too.. So afterall is his fault..
My fren say maybe the PRC didnt demand anything from him.. the attention the care.. thats y he prefer to be with her.. My fren still so kind help him look for excuse.. When in a r/s who doesnt need the attention, the care, the love from the other? And the guy didnt even settle the problem with my fren, when she caught them at the chalet where she is doing her co's event.. If she never saw them, how long will she be kept in the dark? She told me she heard the PRC calling him "lao gong".. my heart went to her.. I know how it feels.. When I know tt woman sent Mr D flirty sms, called Mr D "baby", when I know they went out behind my back, hold hands, kiss and more stuff.. I think I almost died, cos my heart stop beating when I know of this..
In the end, we still cant figure out how can they give up the 8 yrs r/s so easily, and treat us like nothing anymore.. and we both felt the Bu Gan Yuan.. Done so much, yet like "toys being snatched away"..
I feel so sad and heartpain for her.. cos I see myself in her.. we face similar situations.. the pain she is going through.. I wanted to be by her side, help her get through this phase.. is not easy to do this alone.. I knew..
My fren told me that she is afraid to fall in love and got hurt again.. Second time got hurt will be worse when you give equally as much as the 1st time.. But I told her, as for me, if the second time I got hurt again, I think I can take it easier since the 1st time already like hell, nothing can be worse =) And I will give equally as much for the 2nd time too.. since I want to marry and have kids young.. I wont give up this dream.. so I will still believe in love..
I hope my fren will believe in love again.. a better guy will surely comes to her and treasure and love her.. I think god is fair to everyone..
This is a gift from her... so sweet of her..
Kawaii~~ so colorful
The 1 on the left is a meaningful gift.. is a small torch.. it reads "Dark clouds never stay still in a single spot"
The 1 on the right is so sweet.. one of my fav disney characters.. Chip n Dale!! Is a 2009 organiser that comes with stickers all those stuff.. Kawaii!! This what my fren wrote "Now that you have found a job, this will mark the beginning of a new phase of your life. I hope you'll be able to record your first date with the next guy you meet, your anniversary with your new BF, how much kg you've lost every week, every month, & the achievement of your every goal."
Hey gal really thanks for the gifts, I Luv them!! Iam really glad that you found me again and Iam able to help you!! Dont feel bad and sorry that by helping you, I will get sad by digging my wounds again.. No!!! Talking about it again and again helps me to grow and move on, and I cant run away from this forever.. It has happened and I can only deal with it =)
