It's Over

Things I loved about him

- He can take care of me
From small to big things, he can really take good care of me. He never reject me whenever I need help. His caring never ends I guess

- He dotes on me
He is not stingy about buying me gifts, treating me to meals, movies even shopping. This is something that bothers me, he seldom buy things for himself, he says he dont need them. So whenever he needs something or want something, I will go get for him, I thought he will be happy. Yet, he told me he dont need them, the gifts wont touch his heart

- He makes me feel secure
I have never feel more safe with him than anyone else, even my family. I thought he will always be there for me whenever Iam in trouble. I felt safe in his arms

- He is honest and truthful
His honesty and truthfulness makes me trust him wholeheartedly. He will never keep anything from me. I never doubt his words. He is truthful to me to the very end

- He makes me laugh
He is a pure entertainer, with him, there are always alot of laughter

- He sings for me
Music is a big part of his life. Singing is his greatest forte. Singing is his love. Whenever he sings to me, I feel special and important

- His Hands
He got big and soft hands, makes me feel peaceful and clam when pressed against my cheeks.

- His Eyes
He got long and lush eyelashes that matches his eyes. Iam always jealous of this. Thats why I loved to hold his face in my hands and just gaze at him.

- His Shoulders
Maybe cos he is slightly taller, my head fits nicely on his shoulders without tip toe or whatsoever.

The amount of Love for him

They always said Love cant be measured...And we always wondered how much Love is there.. Maybe the amount of things you can do for that some1 can act as a measurement of Love..

Over the 8yrs I have put in so much Love that I didnt even realised it. For him, the extend of love seems infinite, seems I can do anything for him. The things he said, I always try my best to do them. I rarely reject him unless it is really not within my means given that period. I realised, for him, if he is in danger which needs my blood or any of my possible organs to save him, I will save him but I still want to stay alive, cos I want to stay alive and continue living with him. Will I die for him? If Iam dead and he lives, I rather we both die together, so that we are still together. I wont mind to die with him, if I know Iam the only love for him, the one and only one. Hence this is the amount of love I have for him.

Last Chapter

Thanks for the 8 yrs together. I thank you fate that brought us once together, out of so many people in the world, is really not easy. Thanks for the happy memories, we have many happy times together. Thanks for loving me before, no matter how small it has become. Thanks for being important in your life b4, and you to me.

Iam glad at least I have loved and being loved b4. I have never regret being together with you, nobody expected this too. The things you did, the hurt you gave me, maybe even you died a hundred times will never make it up to me, but I never hate you and I didnt want to cos hate will only bring more hurt. I hope all the happy memories we had can overcome and erase the hurt in me. 我不想忘記你, 我不想討厭你, 或許不能夠擁有你, 但你的好我還記得, 曾經擁有過你, 是不是, 就該滿足了？

I have always work hard, chasing after you from behind, trying my best to be on par with you. Even you rejected me, I still keep trying hard, hoping you will finally notice me. But I realised, no matter how hard I tried, you will never notice me, so there is no point to keep going. Its enough, I dont want to keep chasing a flyaway kite anymore. No matter how much Love I put in, it will never be return. Its enough, I give up.. Iam through Loving you..你走得太快忘了等待, 我追着心痛的节拍, 却没跟上来, 你判了我失败

I have done everything I can do for you for us for myself. Love cant be forced. Whats suppose to be mine will be mine. Everything happens with a good will and intention. Iam not sure if our destiny or fate has truely ended, time will tell. For now, there is nothing left of us already. Maybe we might cross path again in future, time will tell.

You have asked me to give you blessings. Iam sorry I cant bring myself to do that. But I wished you happiness, so long you are happy, I will be happy for you too.

I will be ok without you. Even thought the 8 yrs of memories and past will still haunt me at night sometimes. But I have cry lesser. I have put all these memories and past lock somewhere deep in my heart. I will stand up from where I fall and move on. I will believe in Love again when the right one comes for me.

我存在是因为(曾有)你存在, 我对你的依赖, 无尽的依赖这是我的爱

為什麼不能好好愛我, 為什麼要給我那些承諾, 為什麼要讓我以為會有未來
為什麼要這麼殘忍的離開, 為什麼不聞不問, 為什麼說走就走…
為什麼就不能多為我想想, 為什麼說不愛就不愛, 為什麼感情能收的這麼快
是你從不曾對我認真過, 還是你從未想過我們有以後…

知不知道我好想打給你, 知不知道我好想聽你的聲音, 知不知道每當電話響起時我有多希望是你
知不知道我有多愛多愛你, 知不知道我有多不想失去你, 我只是太過於愛你…

I know what I said now might not matters to you anymore. But this is something I want to say out and be remembered. Maybe 1 day when you have experienced lost and fall, and read this again, you will understand what I said and how I felt.

For now, sayonara my dearest love...