Some of what he said b4

I thought of posting of what he said before..so that I will rem this is wat he said before..

"ya ya ... i owe u owe everyone that i know ok ... i m selfish only pursue wat i want in life ... but nv spare a thought 4 u ... i nv end thing nicely n clamly wif u like a man ... i m a coward ok ... anyway i will get used 2 all these remarks n stares... i jus want to b wif the one that i love ... n she is the one that i truly love now ... n she is also true 2 me ... n i hav no regrets makin that decision in my life ..."

Yes you are selfish, very selfish. Childish not a man. Hope you wont have regrets too.

"if i nv make that decision... i think i will regret it 4 the rest of my life ... n both of us wont b happy ... when i only b wif u afraid that u will b sad n cant take it n i m not really happy nor wat i want in my life ... u know my very high expectations so not really anyone can b wif me ... i m not ordinary simple guy ... "

You are wrong, if you never make that decision, only you are not happy cos I was happy all along when being with you. So now you make that decision, only me who will be unhappy. Yes I will be sad and cant take it if you leave, but you have left, so wats the purpose of that statement now. Thank you for your pretence of being happy when you are actually not. Do you have very high expectations 8 yrs ago? This is something of you NOW that I dont like. Too arrogant, high confidence. Nobody is perfect, you are not as good as you thought you are. By saying it out, it disgust me.

"yes u r impt in my life b4 ... u were everythin but i guess through the yrs i hav grown up n i hav 2 b true 2 wat i want ... i did admit i was naive 2 make the promise of saying i will marry u n b wif u 4 the rest of ur life ... now i realise life is reality n mus b practical ... we cant stay in the fairtale land of our own ... we hav 2 grow up n b true 2 ourselves... i hav 2 b true 2 myself of wat i want ... "

You didnt really grow up mentally, you changed. You knew you wasnt this way when you are younger. Or did you know? Becoming too self-centered, complacent taking things for granted, selfish, arrogant, too confidence about yourself. Yes I agree is naive, naive to make such promise when you dont even like me as who I am at all. Yes we should be rational and practical, I cant say you shouldnt be true to yaself. But is your this true to myself hurt me deeply, it disappoint me too. Yea I hope you truely grow up mentally.

"sorry 4 the selfishness inside me... but i cant force myself 2 b happy when i know i m not ... i try 2 let it go as time goes by ... but after so many yrs i cant ... n i know i nv will... so i made this decision ... "

Indeed you are selfish. Thank you for your pretence to be happy when you are not, cos I was really happy being with you all these 8 yrs. Sorry that you will never be happy being with me.

"its jus a pure coincidence that she appeared n i decide 2 make this decision ... i dun deny a part is bcoz of her but mostly is i want 2 make this decision myself ... hope u understand ..."

To be true, I think you only have the courage to make this decision cos that woman appears and she didnt turn you down. I thank you for her appearance too, if not I will be living in your pretence and makes a fool of myself that you actually like or love me, when Iam just a companion to you all these years.

"from small when i say i want somethin i will get it ... bcoz i m the prince ... theres nothin i cant get ... unless its not within my mean... i hav 2 do wat my heart says if not i will live wif this regret 4ever ...sorry"

This speaks so much about you. Even the great King has his fall.

"i told u i can only giv u 99% its always that 1% that i mind so much n it spoils everythin... u dunno me thats y u cant feel it ..."

You are wrong. You didnt give me the 99%, if not you wont just fall for another so easilt and left so suddenly. I think it should be the other way round. You said you mind so much, so it should be 99% you mind and 1% of love.

"nvm lah ... this had past so dun talk abt it anymore ... 2 me i want 2 love that person 100% n feel safe n secure wif her ... n its boost my confidence n self esteem ... thats y i change... this is the real me ... "

Your confidence and self esteem is overflowing already. Anymore of those, I dont know what will become you.

"in my eyes u r always a small gal ..."

The things I do with you might be childish or I might seems childish, cos I want to get your attention and love. I want you to look at me and smile. Cos I knew you have much pride and ego, I want you to feel that you are the stronger 1 in the r/s, take charge of the r/s, the 1 that can take care of me. Knowing myself physically, I know I can only go for being cute and not sexy in the past. I think that make me seems even more child-like. I knew you always think Iam some1 cant think for myself. You are wrong. Iam not a small gal. I do think, I did think for my future, yours, ours. I think when you always said "I dont know", I think and plan when you always said "Anything", I put in thoughts and Iam not trying to argue nor disagree with you when I give you my opinions about the negative side of things. Iam sensitive to ppl around me, and at least I think before I speak. If Iam a small gal, I wont be even writing all these stuffs.

"i thought i can take care of u all the time ... but i also got my limit n i m really tired already ... i need someone that can take care of me ... n i can also in turn take care of her ... the care that she giv me n i giv her is different ..."

I always thought the bf should be the 1 taking care of gf, like a man.

"ya ... i m afraid i will regret in future if we really get married ... i can only care 4 u as a fren ... nothin more nothin less ... it will stay this ways"

Yea Iam glad that we arent married, cos I dont want to marry some1 who dont love me whole heartedly too. Not to the you now, who cant even take care of the situation well, left alone taking care marraige n family.

"i thought u will change 4 me... but u nv did... until somethin big happens... i gav u so much time but u nv realise it on ur own ... always expect me 2 say out 2 u ... i m really tired of that ... we 2gether 4 so long but we jus dun hav that special click ..."

The change you meant is losing weight. I want to change it myself, not when u keep talking about it. If we were to get marry, you think I dont have the consciences to be a beautiful bride? Who dont want to be the most beautiful bride? Guess, you did not trust me all along, never trust me at all. How to realise on my own when I thought we are blissfully together? Even if I expect you to say, but did u say it out? You always expect me to read your mind, I cant totally even if Iam good with thinking how others will feel.

"ya... now... but its all 2 late ... u should know that ...but seriously i dun feel anythin ... n i also got my limit... n i know it wont work out ..."

Late. You were the one who called the stop. Of cos you dont feel anything, there is no me in your eyes. Limit. Where are mine then? Is it fair that you are the only one who think it wont work out all along?