16th Nov 2008

Was so tired after the whole week.. I slept till noon then wake up for brunch.. My legs still abit tired from yesterday blading.. Have my brunch.. Automatically on my laptop to chat with frens on msn.. Watch my fav anime.. Just feel like slacking and doing nothing.. No motivation for anything.. Didnt even do my mask, body scrub, paint my nails all those beauty stuff lol..

Was chatting with Bestie A, we make a deal that by end of year 2008, we must be happier than now.. do or achieve something that will make ourselves happy.. cos I told her I really have a tough time adapting single life.. I just feel so lost.. I was asking her what should I do to get rid of this belonging feeling inside my heart? Maybe I was so used and loyal in the r/s, my heart can only fit 1, that I never really want to know other guys.. Even now, I feel that I can only manage a smile, a hi and bye to guys.. OMG how am I going to make new guy friends? Bestie A said that my condition is quite serious.. she suggest that I treat guys like gals then can make new guy friends.. Iam so pathetic..

Then Bestie A said wo pa pa of this cruel world.. I told her yea the world is cruel.. it never teaches you that there is no ever after.. you have to be selfish to survive.. hard work do not necessary yield good rewards.. love has expiry date.. the only 3 things you can ever trust are parents, god and money.. Haha I sound like a sadist but is true.. If only love can buy insurance?

I think and realise alot these days.. I can only be 23 once in a life time.. I can only have my youth once in a life time.. Why dont I enjoy and make the best out of it? Why do I mind so much of being not comparable to a 34 yr old woman? Why do I mind not being old n mature enough? Bestie A told me to just behave like a 23, what can others expect? She said at each diff stage, one will have diff exudes.. Like at 23, one will exudes in innocence whilst at 34 one will exudes sensibility.. so true.. I shouldnt pretend anymore.. I shouldnt pretend that I dont like cute things anymore.. I shouldnt pretend that I dont like to dress in jap style anymore.. I shouldnt pretend that I prefer black coffee than ice mocha.. I shouldnt pretend that Iam happy when Iam not.. I have to be true to myself..

Iam proud to be a xiao mei mei still in some way..Hee hee Iam still a jie jie not auntie.. Iam gonna club as much as possible.. if not I will feel too old when Iam 30 plus..

15th Nov 2008

Sian Sat still have to work.. Work till 2 plus then went for a quick lunch before meeting Bestie QM for roller blading.. Haha lucky Iam not caught dozing off in front of the monitor during work.. Little did I know that I can get to East Coast within 15mins via taxi.. Cos all the way chiong expressway..

Once we reached.. I have to scout around to rent the blades.. I havent offcially buy my own skates, wait till I get my pay.. Yoohoo.. This rental shop is on a slope, so after I wore my blades.. I dont know how to get down cos I dont know how to stop yet.. I can only go forward lol.. Lucky there is a bike in front so i went to grab it.. Iam so pathetic he let me hold on it longer till I get my balance lol.. Bestie Qm and I then slowly skate along the park and chating leisurely.. Haha she was telling me she can intro me some nice eligible bachelors.. Well I said maybe later hee.. We are spying around see got any handsome guys haha but we saw alot of cute dogs n kids.. Its really crowded at east coast park on Sat.. We around for 2 hrs.. When I took off my skates after that.. My feet is cramp..

After skating.. We went to the Hong Kong Cafe eat.. Bestie Qm orderd pork chop rice and I ordered XO carrot cake n french toast to share with her. The XO carrot cake really nice.. After we eat.. we head to the catch catch nearby.. heehee saw the bear that Bestie QM like.. I try 2 bucks and caught it for her haha feel so proud of myself.. My "school fees" last time pays off.. Nothing to do.. we decide to head to Suntec to shop Bestie QM yoga pants for her Body Combat class.. We went La Senza to buy instead.. cos we saw a quite comfortable pants.. we saw alot of sexy bras.. we keeping joking say if we buy then for who to see? Then I say I will wear to club haha.. Like I see this bra that has lace on the edges of the cup.. I think I can wear with a low neck line and jus show the lace rim.. Haha then we are saying we both like bras that have padding.. Bestie QM say if there is padding, wont zhao geng.. But I say I want padding cos I want the push up effect mah lol.. Enough of bras lol..

We then head to popular fiesta at the convention to take a look.. nothing much to buy.. I got 2 self test books.. Quite fun.. Its cheap.. $1.90 each.. After that we head home.. Too tired.. On my way home.. I slept through the whole bus journey.. I miss a stop!!! Throughout the ride.. the guy beside me must be seeing me knocking side to side, front to back.. Iam really darn tired and sleep through..

Some photos...


This is the XO carrot cake


This the cute lazy bear I caught heehee


The 2 self test books

14th Nov 2008

Today after work, went to meet up with my tikam frens at Vivo City as usual.. Heehee Fren G and her hubby just came back from HK holiday.. so eager to see them.. hope can see some photos and hear their stories.. We will at Mac Dang Dang for dinner and stay there crap lol.. I think we are the loudest there.. We also discussed what to bring for our christmas chalet.. Who to bring what..End up they didnt tell what to bring..

We left at 11 plus and I walked home.. I think walking back at night is still bearable..

Actually, if you asked me if I look forward to christmas.. Yes I will, though Iam not a christian, but I like this season for giving.. I like to buy presents for others and received too.. I know this year is going to be very different.. on 25th everywhere will be couples.. I got think of hiding at home.. Spare myself the agony.. I will think of why arent I spending this special day with XXX? Will I be lonely? Maybe..


Fren G's HK pressie