17th Nov 2008

Came to work to realised that my filipino co-worker's mother pass away and she is still here at work. We all knew she has been crying, her eyes were so red.. who wouldnt? But I find it so coincident, cos 2 days ago, my another china co-worker's mother was in critical condition and she left on urgent leave to go back hometown to visit her. And I knew today that her mother pass away on Sunday. My heart went out to her, she is younger than me, yet she is so much stronger and braver than me. On Friday, she is still smiling and working and handover her work to us before she left on Saturday. She is just so strong and brave.. Same goes to my this filipino co-worker, she still comes to work as usual.. If it is me, I think I will break down.. Is your dearest mother.. I couldnt comprehend the lost.. I knew I wont make it if it is me.. I knew I wont able to be strong and brave.. Before my china co-worker left, I gave her big hug.. I dont know what to say to her.. I dont want to say anything that will sadden her. I gave her a big hug to show her my support.. As for this filipino co-worker, she is much older and a quiet lady.. I dont know what to say to her either.. I just behave as usual.. Give her my smiles..

I have lost my dearest great-grandmother, grandfather and my sec fren.

My great-grandmother is very dear to me, she raised me up, she buys me pretty dresses, she buys me my favourite big sweet oranges, share the same bed as me.. Till now, I still remembered the room will smell like peppermint cos of the ointment she applied.. I remember how tightly she hugged me and cried whenever I got to come back to sg after my vacation at hk.. Me and her share an infinity.. We have a bond so strong.. Till now after so many years, when I visit her grave.. Just by looking at the photo.. The tears just flow.. All these, she didnt shared any blood relationship with me.. she was the second wife of my great-grandfather.. my paternal grandfather was from the first wife.. Strangely, we will ever so closed..

My grandfather passed away a few years back.. I wasnt close to him.. I think our relationship will be better if Iam a guy.. He was a traditional man.. Prefers sons than daugthers.. So he never really care about me.. Strangely.. when I visit him for the last time in hospital.. I couldnt help but cry when he looks at me in a very sick manner.. I just cry and I ran out of the room caused I dont want him to think too much about leaving us..

My sec fren is a nice guy who definitely do not deserved such fate.. He was so young, so many thing waiting for him to do.. Fate.. I hope he is at somewhere better now.. I believe a good guy will have a good outcome.. God is fair..