♥Name: Lai Man - Liwen - Emily♥. B-day: 28/5 Horoscope: Gemini Hobbies: Watch Anime(all kinds), Drama(all kinds) & Movies(anything except horror), Read Manga(romance), Novels(all kinds) & Fashion Magazines, Music [Hip Hop, R&B, Pop, Jazz], Sports [Swim, Jog, Badminton, Tennis], ♥ Baking & Cook, ♥ Cosmetics, ♥ Shopping Likes: Have coffee at cafe, Chill out with red wines or any alcohol, Clubbing, Chat with frens, Take Photos
♥ New Year Resolutions 2009
1) Want to lose 10kg .
2) Work hard, at least able to get through this downturn .
3) Save up more money, able to go travel .
4) Continue my E-biz and sell away all the stuff .
5) Continue my blog regularly .
6) Know more people .
7) Able to play more on piano .
8) Able to "Save myself" "Let go" "Say Goodbye" .
9) Do my facebook .
♥ Wishlist
1) Iphone .
2) Ipod .
3) Levis Lady Style Jeans (need lose some more weight) .
4) Coach Wallet/Bag .
5) White crystal headphones .
♥ Current Enjoyments
1) Reading "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer and others .
2) Watching some old dramas .
3) Watching Skip Beat .
I was inspired by someone to write a letter to myself.. I think is a good way to express what I feel inside and what I want to tell myself.. Here it goes..
To my dearest self,
You have been doing quite well for now, dont give up, Ganbatte. Remembered you are loved by your family and friends. Count your blessings, not everybody has the same blessings as you. Each day, so many around the world are living in a worse condition than you, so many do not have the love that you have, so many didnt even have the privilege to live. Treasured what you have in the past, what you have now, and what you will have in the future.
I know you are hurt, very hurt. I know you didnt expect it to happen. I know you didnt expect the person you loved the most will turn around to hurt you. I know the hurt is indescribable, feels like thousand of swords pierce through you and your heart is squeezing so hard that it makes you breathless. I know you have cried alot, mourned alot and grieved alot, especially when you are alone and those sleepless nights are haunting you.
I have come to tell you to stop, to see the facts. If a person truly loves and treasures you, he will not leave and hurt you, nothing will come between you and him, no temptations will lure him from you. Both of you can go through thick and thin, endless obstacles. Caused you are his world.
So now, you can see that he is not the one, if he is, he wouldnt have hurt you.
Take this as a lesson, an opportunity to mature. There are all kinds of people in the world, not everyone is as nice as you think. People can be selfish. The only ones who wouldnt hurt you are surely your family and dearest friends. You have seen the cruel part of reality. Happily ever after only happens in fairytale, things will last only if both work hard. Love will have a expiry date, if both are not serious and strong enough to walk through eternity.
Destiny is in your hand. How you want to lead your life is determine by yourself. Happiness and sadness can be controlled by you. A negative thought can always be modified to a happy thought. Thats why they always say optimistic people tend to live longer. You are still young, so live and enjoy your remaining youth. There are so many more things you can do and for others. Dont worry, you wont be alone.
Smile and laugh more like you used to, cause that will makes you happier and people can feel your happiness, in turn makes them smile too. Remember how someone has mentioned before that when you smile happily, you have those sparks in your eyes? I think you looks better when you are smiling.
Be strong..no matter how many times you have been hurt, how many times you have cried, how many times you have fell.. remember to stand up and move on.. I know you are a strong girl. I think you are more of a weed than a rose. Remember how you used to take care of the household when you are young, when your father was overseas working, your brother and mother depends on you? Remember how guyish you were when you were young? You cut your hair short, cos you dont want to appear soft, as you think long hair means you are girly and weak.. Remember how daring you were, when you try to did everything a guy can do? Be it jumping into a creek, abseiling down rocky hill, street soccer etc.. you went all out.. weak wasnt in your mind that time.. Remember how you once told him that you will take it lightly if ever something happen to the relationship? Cos you said.. if it is not meant to be, no use continuing, if it is yours, it always be yours.. Do you remembered all these? You wasnt a flower kept in the greenhouse from the start.. You wasnt the princess that will wait for the prince to come and safe you.. You never will be..
Dont feel sad that he didnt truly see you and treasure you after all these years. The problem is with him. I think you are a gem that is still covered with dust, awaiting someday, someone will found you and you will become the precious gem..
Love yourself before others can love you. Have confidence in yourself and you will glow, people will then be attracted to you. One day, you can also become the beautiful butterfly..
