♥Name: Lai Man - Liwen - Emily♥. B-day: 28/5 Horoscope: Gemini Hobbies: Watch Anime(all kinds), Drama(all kinds) & Movies(anything except horror), Read Manga(romance), Novels(all kinds) & Fashion Magazines, Music [Hip Hop, R&B, Pop, Jazz], Sports [Swim, Jog, Badminton, Tennis], ♥ Baking & Cook, ♥ Cosmetics, ♥ Shopping Likes: Have coffee at cafe, Chill out with red wines or any alcohol, Clubbing, Chat with frens, Take Photos
♥ New Year Resolutions 2009
1) Want to lose 10kg .
2) Work hard, at least able to get through this downturn .
3) Save up more money, able to go travel .
4) Continue my E-biz and sell away all the stuff .
5) Continue my blog regularly .
6) Know more people .
7) Able to play more on piano .
8) Able to "Save myself" "Let go" "Say Goodbye" .
9) Do my facebook .
♥ Wishlist
1) Iphone .
2) Ipod .
3) Levis Lady Style Jeans (need lose some more weight) .
4) Coach Wallet/Bag .
5) White crystal headphones .
♥ Current Enjoyments
1) Reading "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer and others .
2) Watching some old dramas .
3) Watching Skip Beat .
My fren sent me this video, is a promo video for Lenovo Ideapad S10
Its a sad video..of cos I did cry after watching it..it sort of dig up my past..though the death part is abit ridiculous but nonetheless is a sad love story..and lately I have been listening to JJ songs thanks to a mei mei..and I like the always online song.. catchy..
Some songs I'm addicted now...
Crush - David Archuleta When I 1st heard of this song, totally in love with the tunes, 2nd 3rd time and so forth when I catch the lyrics, it just blend in so well.. "Do you catch a breathe when I look at you?".. Iam crapping but hope 1 day I will have a crush again, or somebody have a crush on me.. this insatiable feeling..
After hearing this song..part of me feels that some1 should just come and take me away from here..I dont want to stay at a place that will always trigger my darkest emotions endlessly..I know Iam a coward to say this..I need to be stronger.. My Bestie said to me.. If anybody should go hiding or leave, defintely wont be you, is not your fault, is a small world, how far can you go?.. Iam not sure.. Is not about whos and whos fault anymore.. I only want to escape from these hurtful emotions..
Counting down to 2008 Christmas
Defintely this year and last year christmas is miles n miles apart, is gonna be so different. Every year for the past 8 years I will love listening to "Last Christmas" - the Savage Garden version, during this festive season. It meant alot to me. Now? Iam not sure. Is a sad lovely christmas song, why do I love it so much? Is special to me and I will still keep it. Just that in the past, I like the song and dont think it as a sad song. This year, when I listen to it again. Is abit different.
Closer to christmas, I feel the different in atmosphere. Especially in the malls, on the road. There are so many people. Can see people are busy getting presents and stuff. I did spent some time getting presents for my friends. Afterall this is the once a year of sharing and giving. Telling your friends that they are special and you appreciate them being with you for this year.
Iam really headache for this angel n devil party, cos I dont know what to wear. I haven been shopping for clothes for a long time. I wanted to get a nice dress. Couldnt find the time..
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2:42 PM
♥ Thursday, December 18, 2008
My Beautiful Life ♥
15th December 2008
Dont know why, I had fever after lunch.. Feel really bad but I didnt want to take half day.. I thought if tomorrow is not better than I will go see doc and take a day mc.. I hang on until 7pm, took a cab home.. I slept abit on the cab.. struggle to walk back home.. cos I felt very cold and my head is hurting like shit.. and worse thing my lift is spoilt.. I struggle back home.. I feel so bad that I told my mum Iam sick I dont want any dinner, I changed, took the panadol and fell to the bed.. I keep on feeling very cold.. then my mind wonders again and I break down.. useless me.. my tears just flow, was lying side way, so my pillow was well soak.. and then my mum came in and touch my forehead.. I just closed my eyes and felt her warmth hand.. I felt helpless and her touch suddenly just makes me feel Iam not alone anymore.. I cry abit more and I felt asleep.. slowly I felt the coldness left me..
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12:37 AM
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14th Dec 2008 - Ranting
For the JB trip, actually he did plan to go. But cos he claimed he was too late informed so he gotta go club at st james with his gal on friday and couldnt wake up on sat to go JB n he no money to go too.. When I first heard of this, quite pissed cos everybody knows the trip is quite confirmed just that one of the frens mother is hospitalized so is is pending in case anything last minute happen. On thurs, when I still didnt heard anything, I initiate to ask around see if it is still on.. all of us are working now except him.. Iam really busy with work but I still will take the initiate to ask around.. after it was settled I informed everyone to meet on fri to discuss for sat.. yet he is the only 1 to tell me he was too late informed..
I remembered last time he hated to club and dont like me to club.. yet when I curious and asked what is the change.. he told me "I do like 2 club i jus dun like the smoke n i always want 2 b in the company of a pretty gf n my body will jus auto move n do the talking this is the full 100%".. At least my principle of going club is to chill out with girl friends, enjoy the music n dance.. I dont want to comment about this sentence, Iam tired of all these 100% 99%.. I dont care..If that is how he wants his life to be now let it be.. Just that he makes me feel that he is no diff to those irritating guys in clubs n online..I really feel that he isnt the 1 I know in the past.. totally a stranger now.. why the change? I also remember that he said once his life revolve around me n he hated it.. well at least if he revolve around me he wont be this way.. I feel his life is also revolve around her now.. all this high life, branded stuff, looking good.. is something he was not chasing in the past.. if this is wat he wants in life now.. let it be.. take it we dont share the same values anymore.. ya maybe our mutual friends group are too boring lowly for him too..
I read some stuff recently and I came across some saying that love brings 2 strangers together, make them close, but yet when they leave each other, they become strangers again.. is so true.. he is like some1 I no longer know anymore, maybe me to him too..
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12:13 AM
♥ Wednesday, December 17, 2008
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14th Dec 2008 JB Trip
Went to JB recently with my bunch of tikam buddies.. our frequent JB trip.. just that this time is different. Cos this is my 1st time going there without him. It was always with him. But I make it this time.. alone.. Cos I dont want to miss out all the fun just bcos of him.. Although it did bring me back some memories.. But I tell myself just enjoyed and I threw everything behind me.. I went after work.. when my collg saw my attire.. they are surprise Iam so bloody dress down.. Well I go to JB with my 2 feet, of cos I need my very useful berms, sneakers, tee and my hardworking backpack which I dump everything in, we go to smoky hawker for dinner, why do I still need to dress up? most impt agenda is comfort.. My frens laugh at me, bet that I couldnt carry all the stuff back, I did!! though it was very crowded in and out, I manages to carry my turtle shell back.. My frens are really nice, though Iam the youngest in the group they really take care of me.. I want to bring more joy n laughter to the group for my effort =) I guess I did, during dinner at the hawker, a black cat zoom by me, I jump, scream n grab my fren and they all laugh =) After a very full dinner, I asked my fren hows the keuh that she buys home taste like? cos I didnt see b4 curious and she tore some for me to try.. I whine saying that Iam too full to eat anymore I only want to ask how it taste like, not really physically taste it and they all laugh.. My this group are very simple, down to earth, loud n funny.. we are always the noisiest at any place.. I think we shared same values of interests and in life thats y we click so well..
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11:23 PM
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3rd - 15th December 2008
Sorry for not updating my frens (=.=), being really busy lately... Everyday after work too tired to blog.. My life seems so monotone.. Work, Home, Work..
A glimpse of my life thus far..
I went for a baking class recently and learn making carrot almond bread, so I went home tried to make sausage bread instead..Not bad for 1st time.. Soft.. Even for those I offered to tasting said is not bad =)
Went with my collg to this super cool western food at a coffeeshop near my work place.. The Sirloin Steak is really nice.. Big and thick.. Came sizzling hot.. was really crowded during lunch time.. Yummy..
A gift from an Indian collg who went back hometown for holiday..really nice of him even though we dont know him well..
Small Walnut and Med Walnut from Shanghai.. Really yummy..Amazing that they have it pre-pack for the small walnut.. and the med walnut with shells are fantastic..
Cheaper than Bakerzinn and much nicer..is from a bakery near my work place.. will go back for more, but I wanna bake my own macarons.. I shall perfect mine 1 day =)
Guess what it is?.. No ans? Is rose bud green tea.. Mixed with some honey.. Suppose to be good for calming.. Yummy too =)
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10:31 PM
♥ Tuesday, December 2, 2008
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2nd December 2008
As usual boring work.. only looking forward to lunch time and off work.. haiz.. come late afternoon everybody become restless.. my boss came n crap with us cos think she in a good mood if not she will only come and huant us lol.. heard she bringing us to a hotel buffet for christmas.. fingers crossed..
It was pouring in the late afternoon.. thinking how to get a cab home but lucky it stops when I left at 8pm.. Rainy days seems to deepen the mood.. but it didnt affect me much cos I know Iam looking forward to going home and more stuff waiting for me to do..
Was reading the papers for past days.. Is so sad that the lady was killed in the terrorist attack in Mumbai.. She was young, high archeiver, loved by family and many friends, happily married for only a year.. Maybe it is fate that she is at the wrong place at the wrong time.. The lost by her family friends n husband must be huge.. This incident will certainly make us aware that we should treasure, cos we dont know what might happen to us tomorrow or next day..
1st December 2008
2 months has passed.. Iam still surviving.. Ganbatte Ne..
Cant wait for christmas to come.. think is gonna be fun though it will be very different from last year.. I should make a shopping list soon.. If not think I will never make it time..
Today left office at 8.30pm instead.. rushing a last doc.. was walking out with Bestie WY then I saw her SO waiting at the bus-stop for her.. so sweet.. How do I feel? I didnt feel jealous or envious like I did a month ago.. I will feel happy for them, find it sweet..
Came home.. Chat on the phone with my "Big Sister" =) Get updates from her, cos I knew her trip to Bangkok is cancelled, so wondering where she spent her holidays then.. in the end she went malacca for a short trip..nice.. We chat awhile.. She told me I dont look like those who will get bullied or hurt.. but Iam used to being nice to people.. I wont do anything to hurt others, I rather Iam the 1 to suffer.. Tts y she said Iam "stupid" but she said cos she dotes on me dont want me to suffer.. Iam really touched.. Touched that Iam loved by many still.. I hope for the best to those who share their love with me..
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