26-Aug-09Haha work as usual, but something interesting do happen.. I was shock that my temp collg has just started with a relationship with 1 of our engineer.. I thought her expectation is higher.. My collg is very skinny, the guy is almost same height as her, fair n a bit chubby.. Of cos was happy for her.. And I was thinking how come Iam still single LoL.. Then my next seat collg say my expectation too high!! Want tall, smart, good looking(pleasing to my eyes) and abit on the bad side(so wont be boring - Iam a gemini).. Very high expectation meh? Then Iam asking myself am I that not sellable? How come I havent even met 1? It starting to irks me abit..scare really will be left on the shelf 1 day..
Today 1 of my collg met an car accident while crossing the road to our office and being sent to hospital.. I always take the same train as this guy and will walk behind him, but today I went to office earlier so didnt witness this.. but is quite chilling.. what if I am as usual and behind him.. will it happen to me?
After work, I went to meet Bestie A at TPY central to collect my mooncake, we pool together to buy get some discount!! Goodwood Park Hotel Mooncake.. I haven try mine, but Bestie is saying is darn nice!! I wanted to try when I go back home, but my mummy dear is reluctant to cut the mooncake, she said she cant bear to eat cause expensive and my little bro n daddy is not home yet, she wants to have it together.. Iam like sad.. cant eat..
Was chatting with Bestie A, complaining to her how come my life seems so monotone.. mon-thur work then home, fri after work meet frens, sat excerise with fren, sun home.. it becomes a routine for me.. but Bestie is saying everybody also seems to be this way ah.. Iam like then when will I ever meet the Mr Right? LoL.. chance? fate? Maybe I shouldnt wait and expect it to happen.. back to this nature logic that.. the more u want u wont get it.. and the less u want it will comes to u.. crossing my finger..
About this online guy.. I really have to step back and dont think and dont put in any feeling for my own safety.. I scare it the end Iam just taken for a ride.. I do feel bad that I dont trust him.. But once bitten, twice shy.. U wont want to be hurt again.. My fren is saying after 8yrs r/s heartbreak u r still standing and alive, whats so scary about this? All I want is I want to protect myself first, protect myself from being hurt, from this, I admit Iam selfish not to trust or put in anything. That is probably because we havent even meet, dont know how is the real person like. But I think this is the best, I need a guy to make me comfortable to open up myself again.. Till now, I still will corner myself, seal away my heart.. no more feelings like a robot..
